I finally chose a person... and I made this decision by myself, because I realized that... I couldn't live without her... I love you Momo, and no one else.

I don't know about Nuriko anymore. He can find someone else... he doesn't seem too sincere to me at all. That meeting on Sunday night proved nothing to me. He didn't seem to be glad at all to see me, and I don't know why. But you Momo, you make me feel special, like there's no one else in the entire world... you cried for me. I cried for you. There's nothing more special or deeper than that. Mitsune said it herself, "It's amazing how the both of you worry about each other."

She couldn't live without me. She said it was hard to stop talking to me, to give me space. Although Shinobu and Mitsune kept scolding her... she couldn't stop. I've never felt so... loved before. I wanted her more than ever now. She means everything to me...

Of course we made love. I was the one who wanted to anyway, to prove that I would do anything for her. She didn't want me to think I was still her concubine. No... that thought washed away a long time ago... when she said she hurt every time I wasn't near her. If I were a concubine, she could easily forget I existed, she could have replaced me with someone else. But, she stayed... and she waited. She waited for me to come back to her. I wanted to give her a night she'd never forget.

You never realized ecstasy a person can give you until you're pressed up against them, feeling their kisses upon your neck and shoulders, and watching them sweat as you give them immense pleasure. She gave me so much joy in the past, I had to do something to make up for it. I wanted to hear her scream and moan in pure bliss. I wanted her to be on cloud nine for once, and not just me. I drove her to the point where she became tired... she said I was full of energy. I hope I didn't push her too hard, I wanted to give her something in return.

When it's all over, I cling to her, because she's my one and only, my special person. She's my Momo-chan, and no one else can tell me otherwise. Momo... you're so beautiful, why can't you see that yourself? And I just want you to know that it's you, and only you. I just needed some time to see that... I love you Momo.

Aishiteru Momo-chan... hontou ni aishiteru des...

I saw him while I was out with my friends...

Why, on my first day of taking a break from relationships, he had to see me? Shit, why the fuck did I wave back to him anyway?! He came over with his group of friends. I've always noticed that he came fully equiped with a bunch of groupies behind him, as if coming by himself weren't enough. The only time I've actually seen him alone was when... well... he was with me. I guess it's because we were so close once. I can't believe we went from pulling jokes on each other by the bowling alley to confessions of love. I took one look at him, and I regretted waving him over. But, it was a natural impulse. I don't know, he does that to people. It's his gift I guess... everyone's got something they're good at. He was just naturally good at drawing people to him. I thought I managed to slip through the cracks of his little cherade, but obviously I'm just another lacky...

He didn't want to talk to me. At that point, I was glad his groupies were there, and that my cousin came along with me. It didn't give him a chance to attack... a chance to get me by myself and watch me break down. He couldn't do that in front of his friends, his image would be distorted after that, they would never look at him the same way. My cousin would gladly defend me... and at that moment, I was glad he was my cousin. He wouldn't let anything happen to me.

Well, we said our goodbyes, and he crossed the street far away from me. Back to his home, because he had to drop off one of the groupies, it was past her curfew. In the dark... there was nothing left to do but wait for our ride. I thought that it was over, that he'd only seen me once, and that nothing else would come of it. But then everyone had to go to McDonald's because we were all hungry. Then, I saw my cousin.

My girl cousin Nancy (no, that's not her real name you dumbass) who lives right ACROSS from HIM. She says she saw our prom pictures. She knows everything about him, and that all he talked about was me and him. Something inside me panicked, and I needed to know... I needed to know if he told her anything else. It didn't seem like it, and that's when we separated. Nancy's mom is a welfare parasite who sucks up the funds from everyone, so I'm glad that I faked the fact I didn't know anyone's phone numbers. But he does... so what if he tells her my phone number? Then what's going to happen?

It was an eventful night... I wished it would end.

Let's recap about what's going on in my life:

(names have been changed to protect the innocent)

Nuriko, who is supposedly gay mind you, tells Chidori that he's in love with her. He's even left Hotohori AND Tamahome to be with her, and that the love he feels for her is pure and unconditional. He would never do anything to hurt her, and only wishes that Chidori choose him.

Chidori is confused and alarmed. She knew Nuriko for a long time, and always accepted the fact he was gay. For him to tell her that he's been in love with her for the longest time takes her into shock. Chidori doesn't know how to answer to Nuriko, and says that she needs to think about it for a while.

In the meantime, Chidori is dating a girl named Momo (yes, I am bi... deal with it dammit!). Chidori loves Momo so much, and she would do anything for her. But, Momo is in love with a man named Toji, and he's far away from here. He says that he won't move to be with Momo, and Chidori doesn't think it's fair.

Toji hates Chidori... Chidori hates Toji with a passion.

Meanwhile, Chidori has another boy named Ryouga who's head over heals in love with her. Ryouga would do anything to make Chidori happy, even find a way to where she lives and go to the same schools just to be with her. But, Chidori doesn't think that the relationship would work out, because Ryouga can always find someone else to love. He's still young and vulnerable, but he's got a good heart, and he could have any girl he wants. Ryouga's so far away from Chidori, and she just wants him to be happy.

Now, Chidori is in a small dilemma. If Nuriko is in love with Chidori, and Momo is in love with Chidori too, then who is Chidori going to be with? Momo is hurt that Chidori would even consider going with Nuriko, and says that Nuriko is only doing this because he hates losing, especially the attention of Chidori. Chidori is hurt that Momo doesn't understand Nuriko and her had a history together. She just doesn't want to dump him altogether.

Chidori feels bad that she has to ask her friends Shinobu and Mitsune advice and comfort all the time. Shinobu doesn't mind, and Mitsune only wants Chidori to be happy. But, Chidori doesn't know how to be happy anymore. Chidori was on the verge of a nervous breakdown when she asked both Nuriko and Momo for a break. Nuriko says it was ok, and reminded her yet again that he would always love her, and hopefully she'll come back to him. Momo doesn't take it very well, and says that even though she leaves, Chidori would end up being lonely again.

Hurt, scared, and confused, Chidori cried herself to sleep on the first day of her break from relationships altogether. It's no one's fault really... it's just that sometimes Chidori needs to be left alone to think... she doesn't like being smothered.

Chidori's also thinking about Toji, and how he must feel about this. Even though she does hate him, and even though Toji probably thinks Chidori is a total bitch, Chidori doesn't want to hurt Momo's feelings and continues to tolerate Toji. Chidori thinks that Toji isn't being fair, and that he should make up his damn mind to move to be with the person he loves.

Then, Chidori hears that Momo thinks that the break she's taking is permanent. Chidori asks Momo, who says she wasn't serious. But, in the back of her mind, Chidori can't help but think that Momo would leave her... and that she'd be all alone again. If Momo does leave Chidori, Chidori has no choice and must choose to be with Nuriko. Unfortunately, Chidori doesn't trust Nuriko, because Nuriko was talking about Tamahome to Shinobu. Chidori doesn't feel that Nuriko would stay with her for always... and either way, she'll get hurt again.

What should Chidori do?